for M.
i calmed down a bit and i thought about it.
i admire you for what you're trying to do - for wanting to do the right thing, to step in, to protect your family.
but as you said, we have not been together for shits and giggles. when i signed up, i knew i was going to be in 100% or not at all. i know you believe you don't need anyone and that you need to be the man and manage on your own. that you won't ask for help. that you switched to autopilot, thrown yourself to work and are trying to avoid any other thoughts or realities of life. but i am here and you should not be going through this on your own. i know you are capable of doing it. but that does not mean you should.
you can look at me and tell me that you don't love me anymore, but i'm no going to let you leave with the words "i love you and i care about you" coming out of your mouth. this is what relationships are about, what friendships are about. life happens and we adjust when necessary. no one said it was going to be easy. but i will never put my career first before my family, before love, before my family-to-be. you have been my family more than anyone else for many many months and i think it would be wrong to just let go.
you may not think of options when you imagine having to return home, but i do. nothing is impossible and i refuse to give up because something is looking hazy. because after every storm, the sun comes out. if you are patient enough to wait for it.
???
update:(9/14/2010, 1:09AM)
some people have suggested that this is all a lie. that telling me over the phone 10 days prior to me moving to the city makes no sense other than you trying to avoid having to deal with me in person. that there must be someone else involved.
if that is the case, i will wish you my best and move on. people change, people fall out of love. it happens. i just would like to know.
but if this really is the reason, i don't think you should be going through it alone. as your friend, and someone that has loved you for so long, i do not wish it upon you to have to do that. as i said before, i am here for you. let me in and we can handle it together.
i admire you for what you're trying to do - for wanting to do the right thing, to step in, to protect your family.
but as you said, we have not been together for shits and giggles. when i signed up, i knew i was going to be in 100% or not at all. i know you believe you don't need anyone and that you need to be the man and manage on your own. that you won't ask for help. that you switched to autopilot, thrown yourself to work and are trying to avoid any other thoughts or realities of life. but i am here and you should not be going through this on your own. i know you are capable of doing it. but that does not mean you should.
you can look at me and tell me that you don't love me anymore, but i'm no going to let you leave with the words "i love you and i care about you" coming out of your mouth. this is what relationships are about, what friendships are about. life happens and we adjust when necessary. no one said it was going to be easy. but i will never put my career first before my family, before love, before my family-to-be. you have been my family more than anyone else for many many months and i think it would be wrong to just let go.
you may not think of options when you imagine having to return home, but i do. nothing is impossible and i refuse to give up because something is looking hazy. because after every storm, the sun comes out. if you are patient enough to wait for it.
???
update:(9/14/2010, 1:09AM)
some people have suggested that this is all a lie. that telling me over the phone 10 days prior to me moving to the city makes no sense other than you trying to avoid having to deal with me in person. that there must be someone else involved.
if that is the case, i will wish you my best and move on. people change, people fall out of love. it happens. i just would like to know.
but if this really is the reason, i don't think you should be going through it alone. as your friend, and someone that has loved you for so long, i do not wish it upon you to have to do that. as i said before, i am here for you. let me in and we can handle it together.
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