For Mario II. (the story continues)

"For you, I'd give up all I own
And move to a communist country
If you came with me, of course
And I'd file my nails so they don't hurt you
And lose those pounds, and learn about football
If it made you stay, but you won't.."

after i got your message i figured there was nothing i could reply to it and that it didn't really concern me.. but i just can't keep quiet.. i read it, cried, listened to depressing music, listened to the playlist you put in my laptop.. but nothing helped.

i mean i guess it was stupid but i always hoped that i have meant something to you. i admitted it that i never stopped loving you and would never get over you. i thought that if you came back into my life, it would all go away and i could move on. but it only made it worse. and i had no idea.
everytime i speak spanish, everytime i hear of colombia, everytime there's damien rice playing on the radio.. i just have to think of you.
and of june 1, 2008, 3pm. but you probably forgot..

i know this is embarassing, but i just need to get it out. you know, when you cheated on me i figured i didn't care because i had no respect for any of those girls. but i knew that if it was jeannine, i could never ever compare myself to her. and that would be the greatest defeat. now, knowing you've been with her and even realized you didn't love her i feel like there's nothing else left.

i didn't know why it happened like this. so many times i went over it in my head, thinking if we would make it through if we stayed together.. hard to tell..

i wish you all the best. i'm sorry. i hope you'll be happy, i hope the things with your sister will get solved and that you'll have a great life. i'll always be here if you need anything.

Z.