Confession.

things change. and thanks to shelby, i have a job a and a place to stay. the first two weeks are over and the group of participants already left. new ones are coming today. it's been interesting getting to know new people, as if continuing in my uwc experience, while moving it to another level. how diferent can adults be? people who live in the weirdest countries, far away from their origins, whether following their hearts and the beloved ones or just better job opportunities.

i got to talk to a few of them. miguel from honduras spent a lot of time trying to convince me to give God a chance, to read the bible. 'have you ever felt alone? i mean, you are away from your family, it must be hard..'
i've heard about this method of 'recruiting' new christians before, but actually never thought about the answer. 'no, actually i never have', was my simple answer, by which i surprised even myself. and i couldnt help it, but think of all of you. remembering the times when things went wrong, when all my friends were concerned about my well-being and sanity, about the times when they (you) would fight for me and threaten those who were planning to hurt me. although thousands of miles away from bratislava, i've never felt left out, lonely and alone with my problems. because you were always there. people who knew exactly what to do in order to make me feel better, to make me smile or to cry a little bit more. lo let it all out, to get rid of all the negative energy inside. and it worked.

if you havent got it yet, this is my way of trying to say a big THANK YOU for all of that. for watching movies, eating tones of chocolate, dancing on the dayroom couches or taking long walks. sitting on the castle balcony listening to damien rice. thanks for all, thanks for being there for me and with me. because if it wasnt for you, i might have felt alone.

so maybe i dont have the real faith, maybe i dont meet others expectations of what i should believe in and who i should turn to when things are not that great. but i have you. i believe in us and that everyhting we've experienced will carry us further. and i believe in meeting all of you, those who really matter to me and those who made the change in my life.

thanks for being my religion. my heros.
i love you all and miss you even more.